[ It all sets pinpricks under his skin, worse than the words that weigh down and twist his tongue for their own sake or the bloody sheets he wakes in.
I think it's already happening. And the words of the preacher β he said it's coming in September. The wheels are turning. They're all already changed.
Colorful static buzzes in his head. Jinx's death shimmers in his mind's eye. ]
[he almost argues, almost tries to explain that looking directly towards the visions makes them worse, but -- beneath the oracle's veil, koby is still koby, and silco isn't asking.
so he looks, and he sees:]
It's all you ever wanted for Zaun, Silco. But you already know what the cost is going to be. It was worth it to you, then. It'll be worth it to her, because you taught her that.
Would you change anything? Knowing the outcome? Would you tell her something different, if it kept her safe and doomed Zaun?
[ Meaningless, maybe, in a void of context, but he stops short of typing anything else out. It's too much to confess, even if he expects Koby already understands the depths of his devotion to Jinx. Too much to say that he already gave up Zaun for her sake, too much to say that he'd do the same with this place, with everyone in it, if it meant keeping her safe. ]
Alert me if anything you see changes. I'll do the same.
[it is meaningless, almost immediately -- koby rereads his own message and doesn't understand it at all, bloodied fingers trembling from how hard he's scratched words and images into the tabletop -- hex vander zaun piltover violet sevika jinx jinx jinx. he doesn't like looking, but he can't lie about what he sees, either.]
it's always changing. but I'll keep an eye out for felicia
[a stutter of ellipses, a pause, then:] for jinx I'll keep an eye out for Jinx.
[it prompts the part of koby that's still his own -- curious, thoughtful, inquisitive -- to raise up a little, getting a sideways answer like that. it feels...normal. it's nice.
so, fondly:] I see. I won't ask anymore. I like it when you're a little mysterious. ( ΛΆΛαΛΛ΅ )
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I think it's already happening. And the words of the preacher β he said it's coming in September. The wheels are turning. They're all already changed.
Colorful static buzzes in his head. Jinx's death shimmers in his mind's eye. ]
Tell me what you see.
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so he looks, and he sees:]
It's all you ever wanted for Zaun, Silco. But you already know what the cost is going to be.
It was worth it to you, then. It'll be worth it to her, because you taught her that.
Would you change anything? Knowing the outcome? Would you tell her something different, if it kept her safe and doomed Zaun?
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I made my choice.
[ Meaningless, maybe, in a void of context, but he stops short of typing anything else out. It's too much to confess, even if he expects Koby already understands the depths of his devotion to Jinx. Too much to say that he already gave up Zaun for her sake, too much to say that he'd do the same with this place, with everyone in it, if it meant keeping her safe. ]
Alert me if anything you see changes.
I'll do the same.
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it's always changing.
but I'll keep an eye out for felicia
[a stutter of ellipses, a pause, then:] for jinx
I'll keep an eye out for Jinx.
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(βJinx, on the bridge, her eyes dull and hollow, lying under his feet, Vander turning with hatred in his eyesβ) ]
Who told you that name?
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[another of those jerks, back to lucidity (somewhat).]
Why? Is it
Do you know someone named that?
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[ A sidestep, butβ not a lie, at least. ]
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so, fondly:] I see. I won't ask anymore.
I like it when you're a little mysterious. ( ΛΆΛαΛΛ΅ )
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Noted.
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I'll keep you posted on what else I see. If it's relevant.