remember โผ๏ธ the hex club โจ board is observing this chat ๐๏ธ and has already shot one guyโs dick this month ๐๐ซ with actual bullets u freaks ๐คข so keep that perv shit up โ๏ธ and u will bleed out ur dick hole ๐ฉธ โฅ๏ธ
[ and the HORNIER you are about it, the FASTER you will DIE, SABER. ]
you've got no fucking idea got a long line of experiences that say otherwise about me, baby more than you got medals i bet
( what would ani say? it doesn't matter; the narration has always been written by men. fraud, whore, golddigger. easier, maybe, if jake sees her the exact way she doesn't — stupidly, hopelessly, naively — want him to see her. through a chipped, distorted lens. a press on the self-destruct button before she ever gives him the chance to blow shit up.
a tailspin dive, sharply changing course: )
though i guess if you're stuck on that little name, it must've been the best thing that ever happened to you ๐
( younger than vanya had assumed. younger than the wear and tear of something worn and torn from excessive use. younger than she feels. it makes her wonder, for a pregnant pause, what youth koby sees in her — what life hasn't been burned away by stage lights, whittled down by the blisters of her pleasers. )
so close ๐ turned 24 last month dw you didn't miss any party
skincare's vip treatment for your face you've got your cleanser, toner, lip mask, exfoliators, moisturizers, serums face mask if you wanna feel like you're giving your face extra tlc now i gotta get you a care package cause you're fucking hopeless without me ๐ฎโ๐จ
( koby are you getting horny over paperwork. )
i guess?? he likes to go over the numbers together i blackout halfway thru every time
[if she'd asked him, he'd tell her -- honestly, openly, because that's his way, because lying to someone he trusts isn't in his dna. he'd say that the look on her face that night, by the bonfire, the heartsickness refracted in the diamond she'd thrown in the fire -- she'd looked achingly young. like a girl, like someone koby might've known. like someone he might've become.]
Happy Late Birthday, then. You don't like parties? Though I guess you were still settling in, last month. You didn't miss one either. Kobymas was sort of the big party for me.
Oh, you don't have to go to any trouble. I can look up books, maybe? We never did any of that on the ship -- not the crew. The captain, yes. She was big on any sort of pampering. I remember a little of it.
[you can't give him lube and then kinkshame him, ani!!]
That sounds Very educational and fascinating. Good business practice.
don't like birthdays mom forgot it so much i started forgetting it too ain't no big deal. it's just another day of the same shit
you got this real bad habit of thinking i would go through any fucking trouble i don't wanna put my ass through i got you, rosebud. don't concuss yourself about it
We could have a party for a different reason, maybe? And you could be in charge of everything. So it's for you, but it doesn't have to be a birthday thing. If you'd want. Parties are fun.
Right. Sorry. And thank you. It's Nice. I'm not used to it, still, but I like spending time with you, Ani. (หถโแตโหถ)
I am NOT. I'm being so normal. I just find the inner workings of small businesses fascinating. That's normal!
[ Like it means the same. As if it all blurs together, the amount of times Jake's been happy to sink into some holding pattern. Hovering near the door at the Pink Slip at the end of her shift, rolling his eyes, trading barbs for a cool bottle of water, already neatly cracked open for her. ]
take your time baby i know it's hard for you to count past five
( asshole. hot humiliation — hypocritical, fucking stupid — fizzles in her bloodstream. not the first time a dude's pretended that forgetting her is just as easy as fucking her. )
with a count like that u must really treasure your lil milestones congrats to your dick for survivin another ego boost ๐
Page 20 of 20